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Love Her And Despair (38)

Title: Love Her and Despair
Chapter 38: Venus/Mars
Final Fantasy X/X-2
Characters: Nooj, Baralai, Isaaru, Lulu/Auron
Word Count: 2100
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Our Story So Far: Sin has destroyed the fayth, and now only one thing can oppose it: Vegnagun, doomsday weapon from an ancient war. Auron and friends lure Sin to the Thunder Plains for a final showdown, where Auron hopes to distract Sin long enough to give Vegnagun one clear shot.
A/N: Boat image adapted from this photo.

No one on the flight deck had spoken since Cid's low whistle. All eyes were fixed on the forward windows, where Shinra's scanners were projecting a grainy image of Auron and the fayth's statue through a film of rain and static. Past the display, they could see rank upon rank of thunderheads massing across the northern half of the sky. Sin was hidden by the clouds, but barbs of lightning were leaping towards it from the spire of every tower, forming a vast sizzling canopy.

Lucil had risen from her seat, one hand braced against the console, the other digging into Elma's arm.

Elma surreptitiously cupped her hands in Yevon's prayer, drawing a thin smile from the maester.

Rikku was leaning forward, nervously drumming her fingers on the gun controls.

Inexorably, all the strands of lightning contracted together like the spokes of thundaga magnified a thousandfold. The scanner's display went white. A blinding flash lit the Thunder Plains from end to end. Even at this distance, the gash of lightning splitting the sky from Sin's snout to the ground looked enormous.

Rikku gave a cry. "Auron!"

Isaaru blanched and pressed a fist over his heart. "Spathi."

Static obscured the viewscreen for a few seconds, then cleared. There was a new blackened crater where the statue had been. Steam curled up from the smoking ground. Auron was nowhere in sight.

"Damnfool thing to do, standing right in the bull's eye," said Cid.

"Not Sir Auron," Pacce breathed.

"Shinra," Lucil said grimly. "Signal V-team to begin their attack."

"Wait!" Isaaru said. "Sir Auron knew what he was doing. Give him time."

A loud boom shook the bridge, followed by a fading rumble: it had taken that long for the sound to reach them.

"Are you crazy?" Cid twisted in his seat, scowling at the summoner. "The man's a cinder. I reckon there ain't enough left to fill a shot glass."

"Shut up, Pops." Rikku's voice was muffled; her face was buried in her hands between her knees.

"I shall believe it when I see it." The summoner raised his voice. "Lady Rikku. Sir Auron has survived encounters with Sin before. This is what he expected to happen."

"He's a doofus." From the sound of it, Rikku was crying.

"Vegnagun's main cannon takes a while to fire anyway," Shinra said. "There's a twenty minute lag to build up the power."

"Oh, great. And you were gonna mention this when, exactly?" Elma said.

"I just did."

"Very well. Tell Lord Baralai: begin." Lucil released her vice-grip on Elma's arm, patting it in oblique apology. "And may Yevon have mercy on us all."

Lightning's wrack was already fading when Auron awoke on a bed of wet leaves. The lush scents of humus and jungle plants and sea-tang were almost overpowering. The trees around him were netted by thick flowering vines bearing azure blossoms larger than his head. A few yards away, root and vine and jungle's detritus changed to sloping sand, gray and colorless in the pre-dawn.

Yet this was Spira, the true Spira they had loved and died for, and very little of it was colorless.

The sky was dusky lavender, pink and saffron to the east. Besaid's harbor glittered below, undefiled. Beyond its fringe of foam and glassy waves lipping the sand, the water was an astonishing dark green. Its depths held other jewel-tones: carmine, pale yellow and purple corals still glowing faintly where night's shadows had not yet lifted. Darting flashes between them were small fish.

The forest sang with crickets and the chatter of waking birds. Surf breathed and sighed.

Lulu's extravagances tended towards flare more often than flowers. Auron felt for his sword.

Standing, he slung the blade across his back and slogged down the beach. Warm water seeped into his boots as he stepped out onto the reef. Coral and mussels crunched underfoot. Seaweed dragged at his legs. The air was clean, salt-kissed, as pure as if Yevon and Sin had never been born. He forced himself to go slowly and mind his footing, although his pulse quickened for the sight he expected to find.

Lulu was not there. Her chains remained, rooted firmly in a bed of anemones, but the manacles were sprung. Seawater was already beginning to reclaim them. Barnacles crusted the links. The metal was corroding fast.

Auron frowned. His palm was itching again. On a hunch, he opened his hand and glanced down to see what the glyphs might show.


Of course. It was the part he had come to play, after all. So where—?

And Venus born of sea-foam renewed her virginity each year, bathing in the waves by the grotto where first she had come ashore.

"Ah." He lifted his eyes, scanning the shoreline.

There. Veils of mist were drifting over the entrance to a small inlet to the right of the main lagoon, separated from it by a heel of land jutting out from the low cliffs. He was no swimmer, and saw no way to reach it save by toiling back to shore and making a laborious trek inland to find a way down. But this was not Besaid, only its echo, subject to the Lady's whim.

Auron raised his left hand in a salute, displaying her calling card etched in his palm. "Mars seeks an audience," he said, voice ringing across the water.

There was a quiet splash. Out of the mist glided a low wooden boat like those the fisher-folk used, save that its beams were bleached bone-white. It turned towards him, barely rocking on the gentle waves. Auron lunged aboard as it skimmed past. The vessel wheeled slowly on an invisible eddy and turned back whence it came.

The mist changed to a pale golden-pink as the boat plunged into it. Auron glimpsed rose petals bobbing on the water, flowering vines floating out onto the surface in dark green rafts. Then the mist cleared to reveal a small, secret cove walled in on three sides by limestone cliffs. The keel slid up onto white sand and stuck fast. Auron stepped out. A trail of small, fresh footprints led up the beach. Giant conches, clams, and huge butterfly-winged shells were cast here and there like driftwood. He started walking.

At the back of the cove, the bluffs had been deeply undermined to form a grotto. Creepers of fragrant jasmine came tumbling down across its mouth in a living curtain of white flowers. They matched the gleaming figure within. His breath caught, as expected.

Teasing was also expected. "Should I be honored, or do you wear this face for all Sin's favorites?"

Lulu was reclining on a shell-shaped throne of horn and ivory, seated sideways with one leg draped over the rim. A diaphanous gown fell from her limbs in cascading folds that were practically transparent, still dripping from her dip in the sea. Dark hair spilled everywhere, pink coral and bits of sea-glass tangled in its waves. Her fishnet stockings were no longer black, but silver; her necklaces had become strings of pearls and abalone. Garlands of flowers were strewn about with artful carelessness, the one across her lap providing more modesty than her dress. There were living flowers too: blood-red roses, poppies, orchids and bleeding hearts filling the grotto around her, sprouting from bare rock and barren sand.

It occurred to him that whoever had coined the term "bed of roses" must not have tried sleeping on them.

Lulu raised a finger and beckoned him with a haughty come hither smile.

He shook his head and came forward, ducking under the hanging canopy and dropping to one knee. Gathering her hands and raising them to his lips, he glanced down to inspect them more closely. Her wrists were red, rubbed raw, the only blemish on goddess-like perfection: but the shackles had vanished.

Foreboding prickled the back of his neck as she reached for the clasps of his breastplate. Auron pushed her hands away, ignoring the enticing distraction of her body's ripe curves as she leaned forward. "Your chains?"

Smiling, she slid her fingers into the openings of his armor and drew him towards her, lips parted in silent invitation.

Auron stiffened. Thirteen years they had waited, and yet he found himself temporizing. "Lulu. Talk to me."

Her voice stole into his mind, an alluring caress. "...and for one night only war was in abeyance. For then did Mars put off his shield and panoply..."

Smooth fingers stroked his bare shoulder and arm. Auron flinched. Her touch burned. She had sometimes used magic in devious ways to tease bare skin with ice and heat. This was painful even without magic's kiss behind it. Auron felt a wave of heat flood through him as if life's blood had actually poured back into his veins. He had expected a courtly ritual, another of Lulu's coy games to thwart Yu Yevon while they enjoyed a bittersweet reunion, but suddenly fiend's primal urges were gnawing at his self-control.

He wrenched away just as violet lips brushed his own, awakening cravings he had thought dead. "Stop. Enough."

She arched an eyebrow at him. Auron gripped her jaw with his gauntlet. Even that protection could not entirely fend off the siren's call of her flesh through metal and cloth.

"I did not come here for Yevon, Sin, Venus, or any other lie! I came here for Lulu. Where is she?" Even as he snarled the question, despair crept over him. Most likely, this was Lulu: all that was left of her. He had simply come too late.

Her eyes flashed. Auron backed away, leaping to his feet. As he drew his sword, Lulu rose from her chair like Sin bursting from the depths, towering over him, an implacable figure of feminine beauty shorn of the greater beauty within. Black ribbons of hair snaked around his arms and legs. Cursing himself for carelessness, he hacked at groping tendrils. More kept coming faster than he could slice through them. The wind was picking up. A helmet-sized shell whirled past his ear like a blitzball and smashed against the cliff. Yu Yevon had laid a trap. He needed to get away.

There is no escape. Our fates are bound. Her voice in his mind was chilling, remote, hypnotic. Mars and Venus shall join. The Three Sisters shall be as gnats compared to the might of the Lord and Lady. We shall be Sin Eternal, in Yevon's name.

Suddenly he was in two places at once. In the Lady's grotto, he was struggling against dark bands wrapping around his arms, legs and neck like belts of leather. A green wave was building, thundering towards the narrow cove. Out on the Thunder Plains, lightning was leaping to meet him. A shield of energy was building around him— it— Sin— for a cataclysmic shock-wave aimed at a vague knot of menace lurking in the fog-lands to the south. He was Sin, he was a fortress, he was Spira itself, the axis around which the spiral turned—

"Auron, break free! Go. I'll hold back as long as I can."

Dimly he became aware of another will beside his own, struggling like a fish in a net. Relief washed over him. "No. Help me find you. You don't have to fight this battle alone."

With an effort of will, Auron freed his arms for a swing. The sword crashed down on the Lady's throne, cleaving it in two. The ground broke beneath it. Sin's vision of the Thunder Plains vanished. The crushing wall of water rolled over him, picked him up and flung him against the back of the grotto. He was drowning. With his last coherent thought, he wondered whether unsent could die in dreams.

Next Chapter: Eight of Swords
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Feb. 8th, 2010 02:03 am (UTC)
Oh gods oh gods oh gods

*bites nails*
Feb. 8th, 2010 05:05 am (UTC)
Oh my.

The images! I just, oh wow. This looks bad.

"I did not come here for Yevon, Sin, Venus, or any other lie! I came here for Lulu. Where is she?" This is...gah! Just Auron enough, but you can feel him breaking in these words.

He wrenched away just as violet lips brushed his own, awakening cravings he had thought dead.

Jeez, this speaks so true to his character. The loyalty!

This baby has officially rounded the corner into the land of epics.

In other news, LJ suddenly seems to have stopped sending me notification of your updates. Boo!
Feb. 8th, 2010 08:04 am (UTC)
Auron's segment of this is just lovely, and I adore Isaaru's faith in him. The question of whether Lulu was really Lulu -- had he found her again, or is she fully Sin now?

I did find this segment a little rushed. The cliffhanger in the last chapter felt like a real turning point in the action, but this one seems a little more artificial to me, like you ended it here for the sake of a cliffhanger. If that makes any sense? Especially the first time I read it through, the pace was "go go go!" and then it just stopped. Minor quibble, though!

Very excited to see if Vegnagun works. And if Auron gets out of this... not "alive", but you know. On his own terms.
Feb. 8th, 2010 08:11 am (UTC)
And if Auron gets out of this... not "alive", but you know. On his own terms.

Lulz, this made me grin like an idiot.
Feb. 8th, 2010 08:13 am (UTC)
Thanks for the suggestions that helped shape this chapter. ;)
Feb. 8th, 2010 08:21 am (UTC)
Anytime! I'm way excited to see how it plays out, even if we've discussed a good bit of it. :D
Feb. 8th, 2010 08:13 am (UTC)
Yeah, this chapter was giving me fits. The trouble is, the whole chapter is 3700 words. So I split it in two. Possibly the wrong move.
Feb. 8th, 2010 08:20 am (UTC)
I wonder if I'm the only one in favor of shorter chapters.

Truthfully, when I recommended it, I was hoping it would round in more readers. But now that I'm drowning in schoolwork, I appreciate the smaller installments.

But fff, I can always break it up on my own terms.
Feb. 8th, 2010 02:37 pm (UTC)
I am coming more and more to believe that stories (and chapters) know how long they need to be. Artificial break points show; so does padding. Trust the story, and your writing instincts. If some chapters are long and some are short, that's okay. Maybe that's the rhythm the story wants. But you'll never know if you try to conform to some pre-set "a chapter must never be more than 3000 words", or any arbitrary number like that.

If something is getting long from a readability-in-one-sitting standpoint, that's one thing, but I don't think 3700 words even comes close.

I meant to tell you before, but forgot: I love that photo manip! Perfect atmosphere for the chapter.
Feb. 9th, 2010 04:04 am (UTC)
You are wise. I may have to fuse the second half of this chapter with this one, although I will post part ii separately so people can find it.

However, I will say that had I posted them together, I wouldn't have made that Six of Swords photomanip. (Next bit is eight of swords.)
Feb. 9th, 2010 04:48 am (UTC)
I loved this!
The way Sin-or was it really Lulu?-played with Auron. It was almost the way a cat might play with a mouse. But Auron ain't no mouse, and he made THAT perfectly clear.

As for Chapter lengths...

I agree with Owlmoose. They don't have to be long, and they don't have to be short. Let each chapter be what it is naturally...

It seems to work that way for me...

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Feb. 14th, 2010 09:51 pm (UTC)
I know Lulu's magic is balanced between the four elements, yet that quest made me associate her with lightning most of all.

There might even be a reason for it. With all the water flans in Besaid, she probably mastered Thunder first.

My muse has been thwarting me. Originally I had planned a dreamy, beautiful, sensual reunion, but Auron kept grumbling "Spira is no playhouse" in my head, and I gave up. (Mugs also had the wise suggestion that Yu Yevon might be trying to do away with Auron as a potential threat).

Lulu tried to recast Sin's power into her own witchy-elemental-Venus mode to create the persona of the Lady as a compromise halfway between freedom (which she can't have) and total slavery. But power corrupts, especially with Yevon rotting the roots of one's sanity.

Edited at 2010-02-14 10:05 pm (UTC)
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